Normal

Sometimes I feel
Like I'm falling when I'm just sitting still
My mind overrides what's real
Like I'm breaking

I lie awake in my bed
Half-wishing I was dead
'Cos I can't catch my breath
Or stop shaking

My friends they all ask me how I'm feeling
I say I'm fine but then they just repeat it
They know there's something there they just can't see it
It's like a ghost

There's mould on the seal of my fridge
And it's been there pretty much since I moved in
It would only take a second to clean
But I don't

Another lonely night
Drinking out of boredom
Wondering what it's like
To feel normal

Sometimes I have this dream where I'm lost out at sea
And I'm drowning in a maelstrom of my making
I scream and look around and I see all my friends are drowning
And there's nothing that I can do to save them
So I just give up
Then I wake up
But I don't get up
Even though I want to